Sorry

I hate of how much i care for others, yet they dun even care for me. Not a bit, not at all. I hate of how much i miss you in my life, yet I dun even have the strength to tell you how much I miss you everyday in my life. I hate the fact that I dun even hate you, not even a bit. I hate myself for loving you this much. And till the very end of my life, I will keep falling for you again and again. Not because of your good looking, but for the Islam in you. I keep convincing myself, that I somehow should at least loosen a bit. But I couldn't. Im so sorry, my choosen muslimin. I will somehow get control over myself. Sorry for loving you this much. I pissed myself off to the fullest rite this moment.,