I am not really into writing right now. But it is really a matter of fact; that I somehow press myself to write something before I forget this thing. It happened to me, but it wasnt that interesting or significant. I just hoping that somehow, I will be able to re-READ this entry one fine day, learning and interpreting; what kind of life I had gone through actually.
Confusion that happen to affect my life. Men that happen to come and leave alongside me. And family which happen to somehow, um I do not know for sure.
If you were to be proposed by more than 5 men in your freaking life, just what will you do? Answer me.
If you were to reject the other 4 men and end up choosing one, which one would you actually favor the most? Tell me.
If you were to chose one, yet you found out that no one is really capable of being your partner, just what will you actually end up doing? Share with me.
If you were falling for someone that is none of any 5, what will actually happen? Say something.
If you were falling for any two of them, yet you find it was hard to choose the real one you want because both is very dear to you, who will actually end up being yours? Choose for me then.
Your family finally interfere and ask you to find someone reliable; religious; how is it actually goes on? Please, someone?
I was actually stuck. It was something that bother every day of my life. And I find no solution to this particular messed-up thing.
I am confuse. And I pray that somehow, someone will accept me for my true self.
I was somehow found someone reliable; my family; has a bit issue with this particular guy. Just because his education is nothing compared to mine. Just what on earth did my family was thinking at that time actually? I'm i love with this particular guy. But I end up leaving him for someone better.
I'm so hopeless. And restless.